i hate myself. i honestly do. the thign i do. i ahve somethign good with someone ((which is rare considering im not very pretty)) and i fuck it up *sigh* i mean yea he was cheating on me and the girl he was cheating on me with was living with him.... i had him first see so naturally it was cheating on me. but see... i kne about the other girl. and i was under the impression he was gunna dump her. *sigh* this is where i fucked up. i spazed out. i was jealous. and this is what i said: i hate you. i hate the way i feel for u. i hate the way i cry. i hate it when u beat me down, for the way i feel inside. i hate the way u make me feel, the way i feel inside i hate when i miss u i hate when u dont i hate when i love u i hate it when u wont i hate it when u say u do and its all one big game i hate it all , i really do. io really hate you. i hate the way i think i do. when we both no its not true i hate the way u use me like im a sex toy. i hate the way u lie to me i hate the way u say "i love u" when u dont. i hate teh way u use me and i hate the way we r. i hate what i am to u. u always wanted more. i hate that im not, really what u want i hate who i am because im not everything to u i hate the way u r everything i want. im sorri im not perfect. im sorri im pretty. im sorri im not smart. im sorri ur untrue. im sorri i fell in love. with a boy like u. cause thats all u ever do. ill makle u cry too. FUCK YOU! FOR MAKING ME CRY! AGAIN! AND AGAIN AND AGAIN! but see what i hate the most of all. is how i feel for u. i love u. goodbye. pathetic isnt it. im sorri i lsot him. i loved him so much. but he broke my heart. *sigh* then i was mean now he hates me. im so stupid... i shoulda just lived with it. but NOOOOO i had to object. i hate myself. i really REALLY do.