everyone is so distant these days. i'm not sure what to do, the people i want to move on with seem to be the hardest to get at. *sigh* i don't know what has gotten into me. i survived for years on my own. and now im scared to do anything without someone there to fall onto. especially that one boy. who im such a hypocrite about. i was always mad at my friends for not having time for me cause of their love lives. and im the worst. the absolute worst. although because of new precations and happenings im hoping it'll fix my hypocriticism. i love you all. i really do. especially you, and you, and you. referring to three special people. i miss you all dearly and i love you. what is wrong with me? i think im worried... and its turning me into quite the emo baby. im worried abotu losing certain things i just found again. and then falling apart. friendship is strong, but is it strong enough, love is even stronger, but it has a tendancy to fall apart at the worst times. lets hope with love shea