I hate it here. i fucking hate it here. so fucking much. Lisa: "you guys were SO normal. such a normal family... and then..it just kind of blew up and fell apart. It was weird." i'm such a cry baby sometimes. but crying to myself is better then crying to anyone else, because honestly? no one else cares. And keith would probably think i'm right fucked up...and never come back. you are all so fucked up. garred. I blame you. I BLAME YOU. if you'd just be normal fucking fourteen year old, do you KNOW how much happier life would be?! Do you even REALISE that mosty of this drama and fucked up shit is because of you. You're at the center of it, causing it all. and because you can't get ahold of yourself, I, ME, I feel the repricusions. FUCK YOU. if you want to act grown up, then GROW UP, and learn some maturity, because THIS, as a whole, is getting ridiculous and out of hand. FUCK YOU. ALL THREE OF YOU. if you fucking move away dad, i'll never speak to you again. ever. and your fucking COW of a girlfriend can go shove it up her ass. and you can have your asshole, lieing stealing son. because i won't be a part of her bullshit. and you moving away is liek betraying me. so FUCK YOU. FUUUUCK YOU. MOTHER. you BI-POLAR FUCKING PHSYCO. go get yourself some fucking meds or SOMETHING, but STOP ruining other peoples lives. because thats what your doing to mine with the way you fight with everyone. at this point your not anyone i would ever want to be. In my own head ive become violent, unforgiving, bitter, and cruel. Other people always used to come first, but not anymore. fuck that. i'm tired of being fucked over. used. and abused. so before i get anymore suicidal... I Quit. you all fucking deal with your own probelms. AND LEAVE ME ALONE. because i'm not okay with it anymore. Goodbye.