im a little bit mad at cyle. he was supposed to come get me tonight-- and then he lied to me telling me hed couldn't cause he has school early. cept i found out its cause hes drinking tonight. when he does have school early and... it upsetsme mostly cause he lied to me. and we probably wont even talk tomorrow, cause hes got school all day skipping his last class to go to work and then to the bar. wednesdayhe has school early again. then he sayus we'll talk, but i know we wont cause he'll sleep. then tehy're all going to a STRIP CLUB where chad's dad is paying for lap dances for the two boys. and..well...cyles really excited...and it does sadden me. then thursday he was school early, all day, skipping his last class to go to work, then to cowboys, so we wont talk again. and friday he might come see me. if hes not too hung over. and if im still breathing. but he's only staying till 8 30-9pm....cause theyre going to the fucking bar again. then he works all day saturday. and sunday i start you know what. so he really wont want to see me too much the next week. plus its exams the week after. so ill be stressed and grumpy. even less attraction from him to me. it makes me sad....mad that he'd lie. and then he acts all sweet. so its strange.