i feel so utterly alone. i seem out of contact with my firends. and now my boyfriends mum has blocked my phone number and grounded him off the comp because he owes her 80$. and i wont be able to go see him. cause i wont be able to stay with him. (he lives 2 hrs away in case u were interested). i got a horrible hair cut. like UBER terrible. i cant even talk to him. it seems like i cant talk to anyone anymore without being afraid. what a horrible feeling. so utterly alone. abandonded. on an island. with no one to help me so i drown. what a terrible terrible feeling. do i want to live? maybe. will i live? maybe. yes. i will live. in sadness, perhaps. in joy, doubtful. just in the state of mind taht nothign else can go much worse today. or tomorrow. or any time in the near future. good thought? who knows.