It's hard to explain how I think. Feeling so secure one minute, then suddenly unable to find anything good in where I'm going. Sometimes things just feel so right, while other time, I just don't understand why things are the way they are. It's not an unfamiliar feeling. Just one I wish was less frequent. I wish it was explicable. I wish he could understand that I'm not as confident as I seem, and that I don't fully trust him and everything he says. You say you care about me and can read me, but isn't that what you say to everyone? You want to make me feel better, but that's just another thing you say to all your girls. I don't know. Maybe I'm being stupid... But I don't want to be like all the rest, and it hurts that you're treating me the way you would treat any mere acquaintance. You keep pushing me to tell you what's wrong. The truth is, I don't even know what's wrong. I hope by writing all of this out, I can figure out more of what's bothering me, but it's just not helping. I'm just upset. I just don't know how to explain to you what it is. Anyone can say anything. It's another thing to say it, mean it, and act upon it. You'd never fight for me... but you'd lie and say you would. You're not a fighter, and I'm not worth fighting for... =/