Dear James Gabriel, I wish you were still here. I'd give anything to be able to touch my belly, and know you were still there with me. I wish you were still alive. I hope you're having fun up there in Heaven with Jesus. I'm so sorry, son. I'm sorry that I let someone come between us, and let you be taken from me. I promised you that I'd love you forever and never let you go. I'm sorry I couldn't do that much for you. I'm sorry that I gave you up for his selfish reasons. I'm sorry that I couldn't stand strong and keep you as mine. I'm sorry that I never gave you a chance. I'm sorry that I let someone talk me into getting rid of you, because it was "best for me". Honestly, it was best for him. Not a day goes by when I don't think about you, and how much I love you. How much I miss you, and how much I wish you could still be here. I'm so sorry, my son. I still love you with my whole heart, and I will never ever forget you. You are my one true love. I'm so sorry, and I have dedicated my life to living for you. I love you with my whole heart, James Gabriel. I can't wait to see you in heaven someday... Love, Mommy