What am I thinking at 4am... They say this is a great idea, what do they know? What do I know? For your sake you kidnap my heart, and though you know you possess all keys- you'll give me room to move on again. I'll let you go when you let me go. Absurd phone calls a all hours of the night- you'll let me go when you're done with me. We'll always go back to thoughts of how it used to be, I'll always go back to thoughts of how you made me feel. ONe, two, three, four, five, six monthes- could you imagine if the miles were closer? FUck you up there controlling my fate, making sure I'll never get anything I want to love. Only drinks that pour and those to give out. I'm a cover up for all who are lost, I'm a cover up for you until you meet your match- possess me until I live no more, POssess this body until it breathes no more. There are only so many words I can write in the dark, to contimplate in these intoxicated times, when I know tomorrow I won't be able to read these lines. So far from home, yet so close to death. I feel love for others which you forced me to feel. So how do you feel now that you made me want things you hate? YOur jealous side always turned me on. But we're done with that now aren't we? Sit back to relax to watch the emotions take over. Two days go by, your such a little bitch. NOt talking and I don't think of you often, not at all until I'm drunk and ready to write. Open mind and heart and enter you- what was I thinking falling for you? I fell hard, now it just hurts and the scraped knee begins to bleed. Crust it over and it starts to heal.