OK, now a full day later I get around to finishing this entry. So here's the trip and the days leading up to it.
Dinner with Brit was good on wednesday. She's not somebody I'm at all interested in, romantically, but it was still great to have company for dinner and a movie. She even spent the night, and wow, it felt really good to hold somebody. I know that nothing is going to develop there though, because I genuinely don't want anything to. As cool of a girl as she is, she's not really going anywhere.... so many of the things I need in a romantic partner she simply doesn't have, like drive and ambition. I feel like her and I are on different wavelengths in our lives, so we could never be anything more than friends. Hell, I don't even think she could grow to be one of my close friends. She's a great casual friend though. And as I said, good company for dinner and everything past that. I spoke to her about it, making sure that I wasn't leading her on or anything of the sort. So that's all good.
Dinner with Holly didn't happen, she wasn't feeling well in the morning and her phone died in the afternoon. I actually thought for a bit that she was blowing me off, because this thing keeps getting put off more and more... I talked to her about it, and she assured me that its not the case. Its tentatively scheduled again for this thursday.... but I dunno, I'm starting to lose interest I think. Maybe my interest in her was more rebound than I thought, and I'm moving past that... or maybe the night with Brittney took the edge off the loneliness. Meh, we'll see how it goes.
The leadership forum in Vancouver, now.
Sometimes I'm struck by the fact that I am indeed an adult. I have a 2 year old son, I pay rent and bills, I go to college. My life is truly in my own hands, as much as it can be in the hands of a 20something. The SIFE Leadership Forum reminded me of my adulthood... dressed up in that suit, sitting there with 200 other adults... that environment, as much as in theory it is no different than school, it felt different. There's something intangible, but definitely there... I wish I could describe it better, but like I said, I just felt adult.
Being in Vancouver was weird though. The last time I was there, I was with Kat at the Olympics. Walking the streets downtown en route to the forum, I passed by many places that I remembered... but with thousands upon thousands of people there before, along with decorations and the atmosphere that came along with the Olympics... the memories almost felt foreign compared to the real places I passed. I couldn't help but see the perfect comparison... the Vancouver I remember will never exist again.. the atmosphere for the Olympics was something pretty unique. As awesome as it was, it will forever be in my past. I'm glad I got the photos to show it all happened. My relationship with Kat is kinda the same thing. Vancouver was like another reminder that my life has changed by such an obscene degree in the past year; as if I didn't already know.