shit

by stereotyped
Listening to: nothing
Feeling: ashamed
ive fucking done it again. god y am i such a hypocritical bitch. i expect every1 els 2 stop n yet i do it myself. y? y did i pick up those fucking scisors. i cant even give a reason. i suppose its probably something to do with control, that if i can do the 1 thing i really hate then i can do anything, but maybe im just making sad excuses. i hate it, i hate myself. whats the matter with me. i know how much it hurts ppl. but this time ther wasnt ne blood, no matter how hard i pushed it didnt bleed, i spose if sum1 sed that 2 me id say it was a good thing, but i was so deperate to see it. fucking hell im so fucking stupid. i told myself wouldnt do it nemor, that i didnt want 2 b involved in shit like that, im alredy involved enough but i still did it, i saw the blade n couldnt help wonderin how far i could go only comment if u like. i dnt deserve it neway. xHUGx
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im sorry...
im sorry you felt you had to do it.
don't worry. i know you don't believe me, but i lived through the exact thing, if for different reasons. it kills your soul, but you live. the easiest thing you'll ever do is breathe, the hardest, to live. we're all hypocritical bitches... believe me.
not that it makes it any better or i like the fact that we are. it's just so you know that we all hate eachother and ourselves and i guess it's good to have someone else tell you what you've been thinking, knowing someone else is there too. less isolated but somehow more lonely.
If you want to stop but cannot, it seems to be an attention thing.

This is just an opinion, jump down my throat and you're only another example of everything hated.

Obviously you need some sort of help if you cannot stop.

Like it matters. I do not know you, you do not know me. No one cares, no one bothers.

Do as you wish. If it makes you happy, fuck it.
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