Maybe

by stereotyped
I wish it didn’t have to be so complicated. I wish it could have just worked how it does in the stories. Boy meets girl. Girl likes boy. Boy asks girl out. It might work, it might not; but that’s not what matters. What matters is that it happened. Maybe if I hadn’t got so worked up about Sam and Raz, this wouldn’t be like this. I wouldn’t feel so hypocritical, and she wouldn’t expect me to. Maybe this is just a lesson that sometimes you should watch how you react to someone, cos one day they might end up reacting the same way to you. No doubt it’s a valuable lesson and everything, but it could have been done in a nicer way. Damn it I really like him. And I don’t think its just cos I want to like someone, cos I really don’t. I don’t want to get caught up in all this crap, again. Or maybe I do, maybe deep down I want the teenage drama, I want to tear myself up over something again. I can’t stand this. I just want to tell him, get it out in the open, that’s who I am, that’s what I do. But that would be counted as ‘doing something about it’, and I said I probably would do that. He likes someone else anyway; I don’t know why I’m even bothering with this. I guess I’m just too naive and overly hopeful about theses kinds of things, I let my mind run away with me. I think this would be easier if it was a bit closer to my situation. If she had ever liked him, or he was her friend first, or whatever. Maybe then I’d understand it; maybe then it would be easier to walk away. I just want to see him again, is that such a crime? I just want to talk to him. But then I’ll be tempted to tell him. And then I’ll just become everything that used to make me cry. Maybe she’ll suddenly be ok. Maybe everything will be like the perfect story I want it to be. That’s the 8th time I’ve said maybe in this entry. And maybe never happens. I should really be doing work now. But haven’t emailed myself the first half of my essay, and I don’t have the spec sheet. I wish I could be bothered, or stressed, or interested, rather than so bloody indifferent about all this ‘work’. Who knows. Maybe I’ll get it all done.
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seriously, i can't say much about your entry because then you can slap me. hmm. but yeah, i guess i am hot. the thing that bugs me is other hotties thinking people are hot when i'm not there. geddit?
I don't like people having fun without me because I'm selfish and self-centereed and annoying. I wasn't going to say anything about your entry; because, well, I did it. To you. Because I am gay. And yeah, I can't really read this entry without feeling a bit pants. But whatever, I just think I can't comment because I kinda feel the same way about people. But I'm just going to try and ignore my brain. Yay! Ignoreage! xxxx
issue? ah, my dear, which issue would you be talking about. hey, i know it sounds awful, but i feel like we're progressing. talking about issues? yeah, much better than trying to pretend pride and prejudice is the major think that's going on in our lives. But yeah :)
And in case you were ever in doubt, I love you xxxxxxx
Yeah I do see what you mean, but you were just acting how you felt was right before. The thing is that I would say don't go for it, but for one thing that would be wrong because, well, I did, and also I'm kinda biased. So yeah - basically don't listen to me.
im so confused susie m'dear
who are we talking about here?
Or am i not to know...?
Ah well, i hope things work out, i didnt like seeing you upset.
love you
I guess decisions are made :( but hey, I know it's weird, but you're probably too nice to do what I did, so you don't even have to worry about that now, because decisions are made.
yeah i got the rest. it makes sense when i know who you're talking about.
im not *that* dense...maybe =)
i demand a hug,
now.
RIGHT NOW.
=)
i went to that J28 youth and childrens work meeting thing after the evenin service yesterday and there was a youth band from new harvest, and i must say, the lead singer was rather sweet. he came and talked to me after everyone else had gone (steve was givin me a lift home, and him and timmy were muckin around) he's called matt, and i've met him before, i just never realised how sweet he is. i duno, i really like him, and the more i think about..
it the more i seem to like him. hmm. i duno what to do. He's so adorable. I duno if he has a girlfriend tho, i may have to have words with timmy. he's friends with the luke bassist dude (who was also in the band) *sighs* i really wanna see him again...
anyways, *BIG HUG* Love ya. Ami xXx
how the hell do you get a background pic??? no matter what i try, it bloody won't do it.and its driving me crazy!! tell me please!
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