fickle, my random mood of the day. well, in 2 days (November 30th) it will be MY full year of being here at sitdairy. SWEET. and, it will be my brothers 10th birthday! pretty fun eh? hmmm... so i still like ryan, even tho i dont want to after he was a complete ASSHOLE to me the other day. i tried not liking him but it didnt work. uhhh... the situation with ricky isnt the greatest either. he knows why im mad at him, and he said that he was sorry he didnt tell me first (that he didnt like me anymore) and that he still wanted to be friends... but i told him that idk if i wanted to be his friend, cuz im sick of his shit. so we'll just wait and see, cuz im not officially over him yet either. *rolls eyes* then, theres this reeeeaaaalllly sweet guy named zak that lives in texas that i met on Vampire Freaks. idk what he looks like, but hes soooo cute the way he compliments me all the time.. he calls me gorgeous, lovely, beautiful, pretty, everything.. except hot. and that is the best thing ever... i love how he doesnt call me hot, it makes me think that hes really into me. he said that he thinks its degrating to women, so he doesnt ever use it. AH so wonderful. also, on Vampire Freaks, this really good lookin guy called me hun and said i was hot and also said that hed rate me more than a ten but the stupid thing wudnt let him *hehe* thats sweet too lol... man, i love men sometimes, but i hate them more. :D