i just don't know what to think. i feel like lost about everything. i have so much that ppl have told me piled up inside my brain u know? i just can't take it. i wish i could tell every single thing in here but i can't. ugh. i just wanna like go get away from it all like pat did. even tho that's kinda messed up, it really helped him out a lot. i gave kelsey a note. i hope she doesn't get too upset. i just needed her to know how i felt. the end.