three sleepless nights. this isn't how it's supposed to be. but you're so good at taking your time to get back to me. i will wait for you forever if you would just ask me. i thought that i could change you. but you changed me. it doesn't feel right, holding someone else's hand. together on phone lines and living at two opposite ends. it scares me to think that you could find takers other than me and better than me. but your head is elsewhere and i'm talking enough for both of us when will you see it's not so easy for me. you're careless and whispered, insulting and bruising, and i thought that you said things were improving these laces are untied but my feet are still walking away away..