so ben is leaving for a week and i am really sad. i wont have anyone to have pointless conversations with. *tear* this next week is going to blow! and not the good blow, that's just me! lol! well anyway, cars thing was fun and it was pretty interesting...and well yeah! there was and orgy or whatever, and surprisingly i didn't join...hmmmm. i am sorry if i was kinda stand offish at the thing, but i have been in a writing mood, and well that just puts me in a different world, and i am not able to show much emotion. hm...i was thinking about a story idea, but i don't think it's ready to share yet, and i don't think i am the right person to write it...i don't know much about the time period and well not much about time travel and that stuff. lol! but i want to write something about the people in my life so i can have it forever and be able to look back on it, and smile about how good of friends and family i have, but it wouldn't all be good, and i am kinda afraid of people being offended if i ever let them read it, and trust me a lot would be offended. lol! my world is a kinda messed up world! but what the hey, right? lol! i was thinking about some of the characters, and who or what they would be, and where they stand in my life, and i was thinking if i had a king character in my life, and the only person i can think of would be the worst royalty, and well i think that would make everything appropriate, i think! well i am sorry for babbling, but i should document my thopughts somewhere, and why not place it where people can poke fun at them. lol! i thnki that i am going to place ben as a priest, since he wants to be one, and then maybe christine and steve as royalty, and kyle i think would make a knight, and well car...i am sorry but i don't know where to put you, you're important to my life, but i don't know what you would be. and also i don't know what to do with patric, he is new in my life, and i don't know if i have totally figured out where he is. what is really funny is that i don't even know where i am, i am related to christine, but i can't see me as royalty. i was thinking of making us have a different mother, and my mom was a whore or something like that and my father sent me to be taken care of, but not to be seen by the public as his daughter. hm... you guys know like how elizabeth was with her father, and maybe even worse...i mean my father hasn't been there a lot for me but i don't think he is a bad guy. i know he loves me but i feel he has a hard time showing it...hm...maybe i should make it that he was forced by his councel or whatever and helps out as much as possible. but he is retired as king, since he is too old to be able to make the meetings, or something like that! i don't know much about anything with kings or that. and i am not too sure about the time period! if you guys have anything to help i would love it! ---------------------------------------------- i have somehting to add to this, i am looking for people interested in practicing magic with me, i don't like to do these things alone!