lately i have been kinda "zoning" out...i can't explain it, but i feel that this could be a good thing. i have never felt so inspired to write, but i wish i had some time to actually write! well i have been distracted to whom i was turning into...i feel that i am slowly becoming my mother, and trust me this isn't a good thing. i have become needy, and i can't live without being comforted. i know this usually not me and i don't want to be like this, so i am making a change in my life. if love wants me, then it can find me itself! i am not wasting more of my time, tears, or fears on this thing anymore. i am not giving up on it forever, but i am not looking, if it comes to me, then i wont turn it away. well that's all that's in my life! lol!