so...i don't really write about anything too meaningful and heart wreching on this thing, but i think that i need to open up. i feel like i have lost my heart and soul, and with that i have lost my friends that i have gotten so close to this summer. i know it has just started, but i miss everything that i once had, and lately, i have been thinking of things i could've done different. mostly i feel like it's things i have said...no matter how much people tell me =, i am no good with people. i always feel the need for helping them and never me, but hen i decided to help myself, and i feel that i have made a grave mistake. i can't be happy with myself ifi know people aren't happy. and for some reason then i find it my fault, and i don't knwo what to do. and now because of one insedece this summer, i can't ask out the guy i wanted to last year...i htink that there might be something wrong with me.