so i am back for a little while, i'm sorry i haven't been on lately, but i haven't had a chance to get online. i am just here to say i love that everyone cares, but me being depressed in't for anyone to handle, i am the only one who can work through it, and i can't really just let it go. yesterday was exciting though, and ben came to me today (after i called) and we talked it out, we are okay now, and ben i'm sorry i didn't go swimming today! but anyway, i really am hating this one song, it's the song i heard after i found my cat dead, and well it kinda fits! but i can't think of the name right now, but i am working on finding it out! lol! so anyway! i'm completely happy with how my relationship with pat igoing, it's a good change of pace! but that's what's going on! so yeah, sarah if you read this i need to talk to you about something, and it's not going to be easy, but it needs to come out! peace out and i love you all!