i am back to my norm! lol! i am doing okay now, visited my mom yesterday, adn i feel that a lot is better. i dont know why, but it seemed that she was farther away, but she really isn't. so i don't need to search anymore, i never lost her to begin with, i just merely misplaced her! :) well anyway, i have passed over the dan thing, for people who know who dan is. i dont think i want to go down that path, and i would rather find a love closer to my age! lol! ;)