my two losses

by brightside21
Feeling: alone
so i have something to write about, now people don't take offense to this, the best friend i refer to is my best friend for a reason! okay so i have been mildly depressed lately. i feel as if i lost my mom and my best friend in the same week. on my birthday, my mom was a total wench, and called ash and i fat, then the whole time she disapeared to smoke. then with ben...well he told my sister that he wasn't talking to specific people, so then i payed attention to who he wasn't talking to, and well i was the only one. i don't know what i did wrong, but it is really starting to hurt. i lost the two most important people in my life, and i am not taking it very well. i just wish i could know what's going on.
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wow Rachel I am so sorry
i really love you rachel... i hope you feel better.
First off, you and Ashley are NOT fat. You're the average weight. I mean, look around the school, the public, and even some very few girls in the media. You're still beautiful, even if you aren't a paper-thin twig.
As far as Ben goes, I think you both just need to sit down and yell at each other or something. That's the only real way to solve it because otherwise you'll both keep talking about it and hearing what the other is saying and getting..
...more upset. I think that's the only real way it'll get resolved.
I'm sorry that everything terrible happened on your birthday. I have a little present for you, even though you should already know what it is.
I love you Rachel. Sure, we'll have our minute-long spats but that's just who we are. I really do wanna see you this weekend and hang out. Maybe Chinese or something.