so this weekend was tough on a lot of people, and i know i am facing it right now. i hate having to make choices, and well i feel choices hate me too! :) i shouldn't be in a good mood, since hell is being leashed soon, and well i know i am going to be completely furious with the world soon...just a warning now! hehe! well maybe if i find a place to go to make all of my dreas come true...man if that place existed i would nut! *sigh* i feel poetic, well kinda! how is it that you could spend eternity in the arms of yor lover, but one minute away seems like forever? er! man i wish i could just feel that touch one more time! you know, hat loving touch as you sleep. the one that has their arms around you tightly, and they cant stop kissing your forehead. :( i miss that so much. i just am afraid of what i have to do to get it! maybe when i move away things will get better...i need to find out if my grandpa can take me in this summer! hm...maybe i'll go to detroit to live with some friends...that'll be fun! :) i could get away from things, but still have people i know care about me...too bad i'm not sure if i could! er! my dad is coming back tomorrow night, that means my grounding starts soon...well i dont care about the grounding really, i am going to be busy with school anyway, but i can't help but fear for what i might get myself into with my father. it seems like no matter how i am he thinks that same of me...only if i had a way to show him who i really am. then maybe he would stop seeing me as a little girl! i miss being my dads little girl...*sigh* it kinda pathetic when you think about it. i know i have a great life, but it only seems natural to want more! i always want more and never less. i feel selfish now! :( maybe i'll do something nice for an old friend...i dont know! am i really a selfish person? i've heard it more this year than in the rest of my life! if you think so please tell me, i want to change...MORE WANTING! shoot me now!