bleh things dont really seem to be getting a whole lot better and to whoever read that last entry erase it from your mind because it was supposed to be private but i didnt click the button i thought it would telepathically click it for me but apparently it didnt work (but thanks for the comments jess and jeff) and ive decided i am now a special ed kids idol yes yes i have no idea what this kids name is but i am his idol which is pathetically sad i am incredible sore 11 hours is too much time to spend at skool weight lifting in morning swimming after over 5000 yards of gayness then it snowed which would have been cool had i been home and not had to wipe snow off my car when im all wet and cold but today jeff said the coolest thing ever Jeff:im hanging with the high up kids Gilbert: yeah he must make like $15 and hour i only make $7 Jeff: 7?!?!?!?! i only make $4.50 ahaha jeff your a fag!!!! but it was definently the funniest thing ever at the time...hmm kates still treating me like shit never talking to me when shes home it seems like she always has homework or somthing else to do pretty sure ill end it soon which will definently suck ass as ive been with her for the better part of 3 years and it would just seem weird and i would be deeply depressed but she doesnt seem to care for me so its just another tie i know i need to sever yeah well jeff i know who you have the hots for now and i laugh at you because theres like a 3 foot height difference but hey whatever i need a hooker too much testosterone jess works first street in spicer and i dont feel like driving so i shall find someone else or ill make one! yes i shall make a hooker out of water balloons and carpet it will be great fun well i shall get working on that then....