wow what a poopy meet we got 3rd out of 4 we are sooo talented the only good thing is that on the 100 yrd split of my 200 yrd freestyle i had a 58 which is insanely good for me bah what a fucking asshole im talking to and no its not you sarah its someone else and no jessica i will not buy you a cookie as i am a poor kid so maybe you should buy me a cookie geez 5 people total showed up to applebees after the meet well the roads were really bad so i spose that makes sense but still what a bunch of pansys we are anally raped now in swimming as our best swimmer well the only one who could do butterfly broke his hand hitting the wall?!?! how retarded and he did it the night before our first meet how gay yes yes we have one diver and hes been diving for 4 days it was sad...apparently im an ass now too woohoo...seems like everyone hates me lately how wonderful...bleh i have a really bad headache...it hurts really really bad...along with my throat im pretty sure im dying oh well im working towards severing all ties with kate...which will make the leave in 5 and a half months so much easier we went to a meth thing with some pretty cool pictures and apparently sam oakland being the total douchebag he is fainted because hes a total pansy who will end up getting raped in the ear for a dollar a pop becauuse he likes the man cock in his ear i wish i had someone whom cared about me and dont give me a comment "oh i care about you eric" when you dont and thats not the care im talking about im talking about im talking about someone i can confine myself in someone to talk to someone who will be there for me but instead i end up with the girls who treat me like shit cheat on me or ignore me completely wow what a great person i must be i really need a hug yet i know i will not get a sincere one its almost gotten to the point of where hugs mean nothing to me anymore as everyone does it it seems so overused to the point of where its lost its meaning god how i long for this summer then none of you will see me again as i am "mysteriously" dissapearing....well im pretty sure my head ache has gotten to me to the point of needing to medicate it so i shall do that and stop typing about my uneventful life...