Holler. I R sick. I went to bed at 8:30 lol compared to my usual 1 or 2 am. The stupid thing is I feel tired haha. So I went to half a period of school today. To do our "All That Jazz" Dance and it was the most embarassing thing of my WHOLE LIFE!! I was wearing bootie shorts, fishnets and a corset. I wanted to die. I felt SO gross and I'm not evening saying it for attention I really hated it. I was red and shaking. I don't dress like that EVER! So the best part was when we were done and I was walkin up to the class to put on my real clothes some girl started bitching me out. She wouldn't shut up about me being an attention craving whore. I was just like fuck you fuck fuck you. Cuz I'm not ever like that and I didn't want attention, I wanted everyone to stop looking at me. If there weren't like 4 people inbetween us on the stairs I would have decked her in the face and started shit. I really didn't have the energy to. So I went home with Kat. {cuz I was sick pee esss} This guy sent me a message on Nexopia asking if I wanted to make money. I said yes lol to see and we like lead him on to the point that we are meeting him friday and doing stuff. I won't go into detail but it was disgustingly perverted. I did not enjoii. Then we told him these 2 fat girls were my mom and her friend and he asked if he could fuck my mom and then we just said the stupidest shit ever to him. I rofled. Yes rofled. I hate being sick tho and I want it to go away. So I can go out on Friday and see my north babies. We're going to Jasons appearently. And using the hot tub. :D So you know whats LAME. This guy that I used to like and his lameness. He deletes me and has no real excuse at all, other than he's stupid. I went off, I really did. He's a jerk, and I really feel used. Some boys are just awful. Drugs are also quite aweful. I will be the first to admit that I do/try drugs. But I have control and if I ever lost control I would LOVE for someone to tell me when i've past the point of no return. I'd want help. Maybe the drugs just wreck a person. I donno. But I miss being a kid. Not even a real little kid but like when I was 12, dramatic but not to an extreme where I can't even do anything and I get so upset I really really need to scream. I miss my kids I lost to drugs, I miss being able to play pretend, I miss barbies, I miss making up dances and doing that humpy motion and having everyone laugh and we didnt know why, and I miss being nieve to the world, I miss when girls weren't bitches but best friends and I miss boys having cooties. Whatever. The Princess xo