So probably the most dramatic life I lead. No jokes. Long story short. Taylor stole Dane's knucks. We went to get them. He "lost" them. Dane started shit. Meagan dropped the Nbomb. Dane didn't finish his shit. I almost got killed. My friends didn't back me up. Now I hate going to Heritage Station. And I fear my life. My best friend lies. My best friend treats me like shit. My best friend is lost. So fuck this noise. Kate, if you ACTUALLY think I'd talk about you , behind your back.. thats low as shit...and you should know me waaay better than that. I guess not. I don't feel like explaining myself.. buut wouldn't it require me to be telling people false things..and things that I would never say to you, or have said to you.. for it to be behind your back? ACtually..answer me that or go shove it. Because you know EVERYTHING I think, because I have guts enough to share that with you, because I had confidence that MAYBE you'd care. Instead of writing it in my msn name.. thats being a big coward. I don't brush this off.. I tried to fix it. This time I'm not..so if you are my best friend.. you do something, I didn't walk away, you did...when you didn't show up on Monday, when you got mad at me, because Jason shared his feelings with you. Kate.. he didn't say that because I told him to.. he said it because he sees it to. Everyone sees that you've changed and you've fucked up. So whatever. Maybe I only describe the bad. But just know that everything I do reminds me of you. Driving today with my mom and I saw that mobile park that we once planned to live in. And down on 17th I was reminded of you birthday.. your nose ring and how much you bled. I remember being kids and playing in your moms basement, and calling Mel Gibson for his order,although we had NO clue who he was. How we had mudd fights and water fights with Zach and Brady and them being our worst enemies and to this day.. I don't even know why. The rock bread..that now doesn't even look like bread. The first time we had the north boys over..and we rode Dane and Aaron's bikes and I wiped on the skateboard infront of my managers at Mcdicks. The time we were outside listening to Rancid and it was on that song David something fuck..and your mom almost broke it right in half. And how we made low carb meals and went running.. Point being. Almost anything can remind me of you. No matter how mad I get. No matter how much we change. I won't forget you and I will never stop loving you. For who you are.. not what people make you. Remember that just because your mom treats you like fucking shit don't go lowering yourself to get respect from guys.. because it isn't reeal respect. Before anyone can love you, you truly have to love yourself Kate. I miss you alot, and everyone says I need a break from you, and that you need to realize who I am, what I do for you, how much I love you, and how much I appreciate you. And in the meantime work on thinking about how I feel. Because I've always cared about your feelings and there are SO many times when I coulda hurt you so bad, but I never would do that. So I guesss... thats it. Thats all I got. I don't know if you'll ever read this. Or if you'll ever know where I'm coming from or what I mean. Buuut this is all I got. Maybe it's not much maybe it is. I Love You. Kelli-Lee ♥