So Mom, I hate how I have no bond with you anymore, that you interupt me when I try to tell you something that matters to me, and how you have no faith in me anymore. And although you say I can live here for as long as I need...for free...a big part of me doesn't even want to. I hate these rules, I hate that there is no more trust, and I hate that I lost my best friend. I remember the days when we could sit outside and just talk. And when my friends could sit with us. We could talk about everything and you understood us. You were my mom and my friend. Whether someone tells you its bad to be your teenagers friend before their mother.. you have to understand and look at what I am before you go believing what everyone else says. And look at me for me. Realize that I'm not a bad kid and that your a really good fucking parent. So just leave me alone. If you can't be there for me like you were before, then don't bother trying. Just go out or I will. And we will live our lives as seperate people..and not as one. Your always my best friend, always someone I will look up to. Thanks for being there when you were. And I guess everyone has to grow up..and my mom won't always be there to hold my hand, it'd be nice if she listened though. And And. So man that got punched. Really hurt. I heard he died. [lies] I knew him guys. And it's sick because he wasn't a bad guy. He probably had no bad intentions. Sometimes he doesn't even know what he is doing is wrong. Wow. I just feel like I did something wrong. Maybe because of how my Dad put, That the cops came for someone at my party. My party. Shit I'm not even trying to be dramatic, And I surely don't want anyones sympathy. I just can't believe this happend.