So, basically, Katie Maxwell, is still the exact same. I don't want to talk to her, because I don't want to fight, the fact is that I should be able to talk to my best friend, without a fight. But she never ever gets where I'm coming from, she doesn't even try. Honestly. If I felt I could talk to her right now, I'd tell her that it's so wrong that she is hanging out with Conyn and doing shit with him, and it's so wrong that he is still going out with Dannie, it's so wrong that she can't even pick up the god damn phone and call me when she says she is going to, and why well because either her Mom catches her.. [fine] or she's on it with Conyn, who's obviously proving to be more important than me, who she says is her best friend. I made time to call her at Meagan's game because I said I would, even though I hate calling her house because I'm petrified her Mom will answer and start calling me names and telling me things that are ridiculous. I still did it. She means that much to me, that I will in some situations put her first. And I'm fucking sick of putting her first and why, because she never ever puts me first. Never. I'm sick of the lies, the broken promises, and the lack of best friend that I have. When I said that in the end the only one you have is yourself, I was right..because I have living proof. And when a guy comes into my life, even if I wanted to, I don't think I'd put him before my best friend any day. Because she's more important. Chicks before Dicks. I said it once..and I stand by it. Don't tell me you miss me, etc. Unless you mean it, because right now it means absolutley nothing to me. So keep living your peachy life. With boys, your mom who buys you nice things, your huge house and everyone loving you, because your quite the people pleaser arent you. I'm not always going to be here, I have to move on. Summer 05.. best year ever. Seemingly the last best year we'll have? I hope not. PK♥