--So I've concluded, I barely even write anything in here anymore, like I just don't have the time. My new goal, is to write once a week at least. Anyhoo, weekend..mushrooms..shit son..crazy trips. I wrote it all down. Like purple auoras, porn stars and bounty commercials. She was dying to know what happend to the fourth peice of cookie. I noticed, I have alot of friends, not so much alot as a wide variety. Probably because I am really excepting and shit. Point being alot of people don't accept that I'm down with the shrooms and the maryjane. Might try acid. Fuck it guys, I don't care. I am so glad you all care, its my life though and I'm deciding how I want to come out of it. In my opinion if I live life being scared and not doing shit, I won't come out knowing anything. I know myself and I know I could never make a habit or an addiction of what I do, and I know that Im safer than alot people. I know you can only be so safe. I'd rather live a little, than sit there and live in fear. Chemicals are gay. Coke is gay. Etc. Not even cool, and I'm done with it. Yea I might try acid, thats not even for sure yet, and I would like to learn more about it before I do. And srsly, don't tell me shit if you don't know what your talking about, if you don't have any idea, or you heard something, don't tell me, because from research and stuff I've learnt half that stuff is all mythical. Kay sweet? Mhm yea, and summer is coming. I'm so stoked. I did like this guy, we all know who he is, still not saying. He even knew..and when I asked if he liked me to, he said maybe. Which no it doesnt mean kinda, because thats to close to yes. It means I still wana hit on you and maybe get in your pants. Yea well go fuck yourself, I know I am to good for you. Besides, who wants a bf or gf in the summer. I mean that doesn't mean I won't have one, if the right person comes along. I honestly don't think, the right one is going to.. so I'm not worried. I just love my friends and family and I'm all about having a good time right now. I feel like I'm being such a bitch latley..and if I am tell me and tell me what I'm doin thats bitchy..I'll try to stop. Well everything okayish. Theres good and bad. All I know is your being a real hoe.. still, I miss you and we NEVER get to see each other or talk, because you never call when you say your guna ..etc. So fuck that, I'm sick of this. So incredibly sick of it, I want it back to normal, and your makin it really hard for that to happen. It seems like you dont even care much. Stop lying, if you can lie to everyone else, you can lie to me to. And I don't like thinking you would, but you have. You still mean the world to me, I just miss what we had. Yea..so my parents are being okay tho, okay. Not great. My dad is doing an excellent job of making sarcastic asshole comments about stuff I want to do etc. It's pissing me off. I just wish I could be perfect, so he'd like me a little more. And my mom, well I don't even know her anymore. I love my syblings.They are killer. xoxoxo Princessss KelliFREAKINlee ♥