So, even when you think you got your best friend back, she still isn't really there. I guess nothing will ever go back to normal. She's still willing to hide our friendship, which shows that getting special treatment is more important. I didn't think it was that big of a deal until I talked to someone and told them that and they actually looked at me like wtf, thats soo stupid?.. and now that I think about it, its true. That is stupid. I'm not ashamed of her and whether or not my parents like her or not she's still my friend and nothing will change that. My parents actually have a reason to be pissed off. Ugh. I kinda just want stuff to be normal again. Like real bad. But I guess we're all moving on with our lives. And she doesn't need me. So whatever.. I'm not rearranging my life for you anymore. Because you wouldn't do that for me. Your so into everything you want to do and what makes you happy. I miss laughing so hard it hurt. I miss when we did everything together. I miss us.