Dear Diary, Pretty much coolest shiit ever. Meagan could not drive me to Edmonton..for oh what Canadian Idol.. yea so my Dad drove me because he's an awesome awesome man. We only made it to Leduc. My Mom's car leaked all the coolant out basically, and the car was fuckked right up, so thats cool. We got some leak protectant aaand some coolant. We decided not to risk being stuck in Edmonton. So we went home. Bummer Hey? Thanks to EVERYONE..who supported me. I'm proud of myself for not backing down and for getting as far as possible. I'm also proud that I stuck to something for once in my life. If you want something bad enough, I guess you will actually go through with it. Obviously it was not ment to be. Perhaps I am to good to be discovered by Canadian Idol? Perhaps I suck ass.. I don't know. I won't ever give up on myself because through this I learnt that my parents and sybs and alot of really great friends didn't either. So many people believed I actually had it pegged, that I could do it. That gives me faith in myself. It's an upper. I stay positive, there's no point in getting all upset because I didn't make it all the way, it's life. Me and my dad had our trip, we didn't talk alot, but we talked.. we listened to tigght tunes.. went to food places..drank coffee.. that was SO important to me. More important that any Canadian Idol. As dumb as this may have been. As gay as "Canadian Idol" might be. It could have be a window of opportunity. And I am going to take every opportunity I get at the thing I love most. Thanks everyone again..who was there for me. It's people like you that get me by. ♥♥ Much Love The Princessss