Ok so it's true now how exactly am I supposed to be? Want me to pretend it's ok? How can you ask me to do that, when I'm dying inside? You're the only one I've ever wanted to go with, and now I can't. It was too good to be true, I hope now you all can be happy and I hope you're all having a good laugh at me. I feel like total shit now. I just want to die…no one even cares…why is this not a big deal? Cause it is to me but yeah I know that doesn’t matter, I’ll once again put myself aside and pretend my problems don’t exist because I can’t help but put people before myself, that’s not right, it’s not fair to me, none of you are fair to me…oh well what can I do, I’ll just silently suffer and pretend I’m happy when I’m really crying my eyes out into my pillow...at least that way I'm not bothering anyone... Thank you for arguing with me, thanks for making me feel worse than I already feel about this, thanks for reminding me I can't do this anymore, but most of all thanks for reminding me that I definately without a doubt do not matter.