Yanno after I read that article, where I got that quote from, I really started to think about some things. I began to realize what I had always known but never really always followed. I have always been a person who never cared about what people thought of me, especially this year, my senior year. I went in with this attitude and way of thinking that this was it, nothing mattered after this year, it would all be over and I could start fresh. And that worked great for a long time. But after a while things started to build up and it all got to be way too much. I started to care more than I would have liked about what people thought of me. Because when life starts to throw you lemons, you are so much more sensitive to what other people are saying about you, to your face and behind your back. You start to lose sight of what you really believe in. You start to become something so far from anything you have ever wanted to be. You in essence lose who you are. People have that affect on you over time. It’s really easy to say ‘screw you’ at first, but after weeks and weeks and months and months of the same continuous cycle it gets really really hard, really fast. Until, one day, you finally say ‘that’s enough’ and start looking for ways to get out. I’ve accumulated a lot of unhealthy friendships in my life that have ultimately ended badly, which is what I am struggling with now. And there is still a lot of work to be done before I can be really happy and content with who I am again. Even within the friendships I have now, there are a lot of things I would like to change. But I guess all that has to wait until I can start living for me again. It is once again time for change in my life. I’m unhappy with how I’m living, with how I deal with other people, and how I handle just everyday little things in my life. I need to get out, I need to be away and free from all this. I know the people that will support me with this and I know the people who will try and make it as hard as possible for me to change, but the good people will certainly outnumber the bad, I am sure. I have a lot of trust issues that I still need to work out, which that I’m afraid is going to be a lifelong process. So just a little thank you to the people that I can talk to when the going gets tough, the people who always say “anytime” when I thank then for listening to me, and the people who are truly out there to help me and look out for me, you people are the ones that I need and the ones that make everything work it and that I know will accept me whether I change or not. Thank you. Sorry that was kind of long…it was something I needed to say for a while…thanks if you took the time to read it anyway.