There are no fucking words for my feelings right now. Let’s recap my day: 1.) got up and went to church, 2.) came home and went back to sleep 3.) ate dinner with the family, a surprisingly nice experience 4.) brought the refrigerator from my grandfathers to my house 5.) vented to my aunt about all my problems 6.) came home and dealt with some drama 7.) rented The Notebook and watched it with my mom 8.) been dealing with drama ever since. Now as you can see my day was filled with drama, by no fucking fault of my own mind you. I love how everyone thinks that I have a boyfriend now, especially when he doesn’t give two shits about me, that makes me laugh. And I also love how people change from one second to the next totally unexpectedly and they don’t tell you why. It’s amazing to me how people can go from being so incredibly nice to treating you like absolute crap. What causes such a change? Beats the shit outta me. I have so much on my mind at this point in my life. I have my audition next weekend, I have issues with my…well my friend, and then all the other situations that occur in my normal everyday life. It makes me feel special that people talk to me about their problems and stuff but sometimes it is way too much. Yanno fuck it, I’m not going to sit here and type all this shit cause its all fake, I’m really angry right now and I don’t want to deal with telling people about my life, cause no matter what I say nothing is ever good enough...fuck it and have a great night. "Cause even if we never talked again, you could call me up in five years and I'd still be there for you, like nothing even went wrong" "Yeah and that's why you're such an amazing friend even if people don't get that"