I am so tired of people treating me like I don’t matter. Everyone runs to me with their problems and I always listen, but as soon as everything is ok again I am shoved back into the corner to be stored for later use. It’s like I’m only good enough when everything else in your life is fucked up and I’m sick of that. Do you have any idea how that makes me feel? That was my whole life in high school; I thought I left all that behind…apparently not and it sucks! People could obviously care less if they treat me like shit and I’m just supposed to sit here and take it. I’m only good enough to complain to but then I’m nothing when things are prefect and great for you, thanks. Thanks to all the people that do this to me. Thank you for making me feel like total and utter shit. How much am I going to have to put up with in my life? Everything I ever have that I think is good turns into shit. Why am I constantly disappointed? I think I deserve way better than this, and not to sound conceited at all…I just think I deserve better. When I’m having a bad day and everyone else is having a great day they basically tell me to go fuck myself but when someone else is having a bad day I run right away and try to make them feel better not jump around saying how awesome and wonderful my life is. I go out of my way to help people, I do things I shouldn’t and this is the thanks I get. I would do anything for my friends and I mean ANYTHING and my friends back home know that, I wish I could only get that in return. I’m tired of people saying they are my friends but then they do this to me and make me feel like this. I’m tired and going to bed. Thanks everyone for always putting yourself first and thinking you are the only one that has ever felt this way and poor you, when just a day before you all made me feel exactly like this, that was obviously ok. Whatever.