another day..... candace came over tonight again. we have been hitting it off pretty well so far. i just dont know if i can get into a relationship right now. so many things i need to do in order to do well out here. i have always been a lone soldier for the most part, but i am really far from home and i know i need to get shit done. so i dunno, we will see how things go with candace. now i will rant a little... i am so fucking tired of posers. this town is full of them. i come from a place where if u wanna be hardcore and be a tough guy, you better be able to back it up some. out here there are so many people who just follow the next person. it is pretty fucking sad. if you wanna be the heavy, speed, or death metal guy... fucking do it. if you wanna be punk or be a hooligan do it. if you wanna be a thug or a 'gangsta' just fucking do it. dont be a pansy and just dress some fucking way. dont sit there and try to talk about something that you know anyting about. everyone is different. everyone does their own things. but dont take someones passion and way of life and pretend its your own. its not yours unless your herat, mind, and soul are there. when you feel it within you. if you have that passion, then your there. just dont fool yourself into thinking you are something your not.