racing... in a car going in circles... i feel like most of my life i have been going in circles and that no matter what the exact situation is and how it ends that i will be in that situation again... nothing has happened that would lead one to believe that this is being written because of an exact situation... it is more of an abundance of continual madness that drives me insane... i have decided that once again (circle relation) that i will respond to this madness with open arms... i will welcome and give it big kisses and hope that i can tame this beast called life... that one day i will wake up and smile knowing that i am in control... one day this life of mine will mean something and it will all be worth it in the end... when i pass on and it is all over how will my life be viewed... will there be individuals from twenty years prior to see me off... will i have affected people in a positive light... and foremost will i have people who looked up to me... these things cannot be foreseen but they can be accomplished... because i guess in the end nothing means shit unless there are a few others who really feel a sad loss when someones gone... --------------------------------------------- thoughts are continuosly fleeting and i feel as though unless i tattoo them on my forearm then i will never have them again... --------------------------------------------- i want to remember everything i have ever done and not forget a single moment of this life...