So after a weekend of thoughts I find myself no closer to a solution for the woes...

Part of me wants nothing more than to let go and get out and about. Search for that someone with vigor.

I know I have at least decided to try my best in letting go of certain demons. It hinders me to look back at failings and allow the shadows to overcome me.

I have my family and my friends, whom over the years, have proven to me my foundation and grounding. People who will do anything and everything within their power to help me when I need it.

But, like any other human, I yearn for more. I seek that which is known as the other half. I dismissed too many, and as I said previously, I will not let go the next time.

Now I just have to find that person. That someone who becomes a part of me. That individual who will be nothing less than my best friend, confidant, and lover. To grow old with and love.

I am 26 now and I don't want to be 30 and looking back as I do so now; through eyes of the past.