For the past week I've been killing myself at the gym. It makes me feel wretched and amazing at the same time. Endorphins have replaced my need for cigarettes almost completely. The bad side is that I feel fucked up constantly and my immune system got obliterated so now I have one of the worst colds I've had in years. I'm striving to lose 50 pounds and to also increase my strength. I want to be an all around healthy person.