update: so since my last update ive come to learn lots of things about myself and others. One about myself.. GULLIBLE. Its just funny how youre told that youre the one with the problem and you start to believe it, seems liek the "doctor" themself shouldve taken their own advice. I mean its like how dare you make me think im the horrible person and then just build up a lie and just have it crumble on top of me. Thanks alot. Anyways, I did have a new girlfriend for about 2 weeks and then she breaks up with me first in a text mesage and then on myspace. She told me it was because she was hung up on her last boyfriend. Why bother dating people when youre not even ready to move on? Grr people astound me. Next I ask a girl out who i was good friends with and now shes like ultra repulsed by me. My friends told me shes a psychopath so i sure can pick em cant I? All of this goddamn middletown hellhole has gotten me fed up to the point where i dont give a fuck if i ever see these people again and i'd almost be happy to not see them again. Pretty much my two best friends are the only ones who im actually gonna talk to after i get out of this god forsaken town. Im moving to baltimore where i dont have to deal with the smalltown psycho chicks, atleast there I'll have a bigger selection then a bunch of chicks my friends have already dated which is against these invisible rules people follow until they realise they like someones friend. its all bullshit. I hate everyone because sanity isnt allowed in this town, no. I hate highschool, i hate middletown, i hate delaware. Fuck off and stop fucking my emotions, mentality, self esteem, and ego.