I've felt like one for the past couple weeks. Mostly from a mix of guilt, selfishness, boredom, isolation, stagnation, empty promises, too much sleep, and lack of sunshine. Sometimes it feels like I can't get enough air and it doesn't help that I smoke. I feel like those monkeys they used to test to see how the ones with interaction felt alive while the ones who were ignored crawled up in a ball and waited to die. It isn't normal for an 18 year old to feel like their life is going nowhere and panic about it. Is it?