.....omg....fuk me....i feal like shit....god has stepped on my heart and fed it to the worms of the earth......brittanys phone is disconected....i cant get a hold of here right noww....and shes not pickin up her cell.....she doesnt know im trying to go with her tomorrow....we gotta leave at like 6 in the morning to get her and get to six flags.....dammit...my life is startin to suck it up except for her....i got freinds abandonin me...people disapearing...changing...im fuking growing up...(shudders)....i need a fuking hug....i need a warm hand to hold....god dammit...im trying her cell again......dam....dammit...raaaaaaaaaaaa.....( tear ).....i have called her like 15 times allready...shit...dam phones .....dam them...i hope shes ok.....today i wrote a song abotu losing someone....it jsut kinda poped into my head......oh god i dont want to lose her.....right now anyone else....just not her...pick up dammit pick up..eh....useless....useless ranting....useless...FUCKING FAGGOT....why cant my so called "family" jsut leave me alone dammit...if i could get away with it i would kill them all...but i cant get away with it now can i ?.....again useless....weres my woman ....she sleepin i know it....she needs it...school must be so hard for her...i wish i could jsut watch her sleep ya know? hahaha......that makes me feal better thinkin bout watching her sleep.....i think shes ok...i got a good fealing now....shes gonan be ok...she IS ok lol....i hope....i know...but i hope...dam....i jsut eft a message on her phone...my sleeping beauty hehehe....well atleast i think shes sleepin.....but waht ever shes doin ...i hope shes thinkin of me....i know i cant stop thinkin about her.....im gonna lay in my bed and im not ganna give up calling her....later my so called fans....i hope you find yours soon .