FORGIVE Me....for running of to find the one thing i had to do and each night, you can fall asleep asured someday ill be comin home to you hoo hoo thes constant reminders in everything I I seee the chance of , a life time what a great place to beee oh wait and dont hate me for running away from you oh wait and dont hate me cuz im still in love with you sorryyyy i cant be every thing to youuuu your face is at the heart of what i dooo many thanks for youuu oh wait me dont hate me for running away from you oh wait me dont hate me cuz im still in love with you every time i ruunn awayyyy its easier to stayyy at the heart the heart is you, in everything i do every time i ruunn awayyy its easier to stayy at the heart the heart is you in everything i dooo to all my freinds...i am sorry....i have hurt so many unwillingly....i lvoe you guys dammit ill be home soon...my life was so hard chelsea through that times....you were right in everything you said and you dont know what that means to me that you know what it was like then....it was so hard tos tay alive then and things were bad and i only had a few people, i dotn really remember anything exept you and wanting to fight for my life agaisnt everything cuz i felt so bad for me ...and for you..i wanted to help you cuz i saw how beautiful you could be... and ive think youve done it...you can be so happy if u jsut give it a little push ....you were amzing to me i never had a freind like you..we would talk everyday on the phone for 9 hours and not say a thing an it would be great...bad thigns would happen and we would be there for each other...i love telling people about you and how crazy we are together...god i miss all of you...you were right i was there for you....u did push me away and i did stay....but dont be sad about that cuz you made me stronger....ims sorry things fell apart but shit happens but i will never forget how you could lift me up past everything and we would be ok ... oh my god it was so hard then for me..prolly for the both of us and everyone else i was jsut so out of it everything sliced me to bits...and i have the scars to prove it...and chelsea my darling you saved my life with 7 words..." hey arent you the guy from alaska?"... i was planning the whole thing to die that day u said hello and u made me think it over...u saved me...i adore you thats why i never want to hurt you ...you mean a hell of a lot to me...and i would drop allmost anything for you love....i dotn know waht else to say ecept im sorry and take care and ill see you soon. alisha my love....you surprised me with everything you did on a cold night before i sliced my arm open to the world and bled down my chair....my love u saved me from exstacy of drugs alchohol and hurting my self and being unhappy...you made me happy....you lvoed me and held me in your arms you took care of me. you are s beautiful and stunning i cannot fathom the idea with out you because it breaks my heart in 2.you fought with me...you actually made me diefine love.....its unconditional understanding without moching and hate....its essance is pure tenderness and love..love cannot be described...only felt in a touch... id sacrifice everything for you.....your caring for my child..i dunno if we'll bre ok but i wanna try and do it...for the sake of my sanity i lvoe you and i want you to be so speacial...i think you will be wthe mother of goodness and u'l be kind hearted you jsut have to let go of the hurt and hold on to me and we'll be ok...i can help im jsut not there im sorry...i lvoe you...you have saved me from unhappiness....i wat to do anything in my power to make you happy.....you and my freinds and my child...you are mine and precious tome in every way...i love you I Love You