Hey folks wahts shakin.....i dont really know whas goin on all i do know is i cant feal my fingers...raaa ....well fans i dont know waht to say....things are rather low right now....ill be back soon hopefully....later folks...hope your having a nice one. [OLD ENTRY] something hit me today , i guess things finally cought up to me or something...i need to get out or something....i was sitting in my room listening to bleeding through this after noon and the ceiling started doing the wave and things went to hell from there...all i remember really is curling up into a little ball and i started crying...and things running around in my room and knocking things over...i fell asleep like that and woke up around 3 ish... i was fucking scared....something like that hasnt happened in a while...i dot know if it was something to do with this week or me just being confusd lately and so paranoid...but im losing it and im not sure what to do right now...i really need somone right now.....and it makes me feal bad for asking or saying that....cuz somohow i know i dont deserve anyone any more...i need to leave... i jsut made myself feal happy by staring at someones picture.....i know this wont last long but i guess i jsut wanted to let somone and everyone know that i did that lol... So waht can i do to make you sad......im not happy anymore.....im done with me...so take me to the cleaners...or hang me up in your closet.....forget me forever cuz im undone and full of holes......give me another bullet...i wanna go home..and use it on myself cuz i dont care any more..im just another torn up shell you threw away...when are u going to figure you out?...call me when u get cold again....so you can take me out of the hole you burried me..and wrap me around you again...and use me well and warmly .....while i last tonight