****** READ THE SONG BELOW ITZS FUKIN AWSOME **** Man this week has ben a doozy...so much shit has happened it aint funny....and right now thigns semm like thell get better but lifes crazy as hell . so now i think i was right....lst summer i made myself i wasnt gonna open up to jsut anyone and kinda weed out the people that might hurt me or try to hurt me , even if they didnt know it at the time . But yeah brittany is pretty much gone...im not sure wahts up with her now...she said she wanted to still be freinds but i dunno i might have just pissed her off...i think she pretty much blocked me ...i know she deleted her acount off vf ....and yeah i was gonna call her to tell her i might come up to get my cloths back and shit anad say happy birthday but with the hurucane and my family not having any money and stuff....im shit outa luck...all my freinds hate her now but m like wait a minute guys its not really her fault for not careing about me like i care about her.....but whyd she have to go and liek block me? i dunno im just gettin it out i guess....i wonder what woulda happened if i had a lived closer...i dunno...doesnt really matter now she doesnt want to see me again lol...that sux....god thats gonna bug me...eh wahtever on to a new topic and a new beginning tonight was pretty crazy...its ben a while since ive doen the hole run around the neighborhood and cause mass chaos with others......but yeah me and some freind went down to there house " got some sodas" and hauled ass back to there house...we left 2 ppeps behind and so yeah we had tog et them half way back lol....but then we split up and 3 of us went into the bus and chiled with the fan cuz we weere fukin sweatin...then i had a cig and then we qwent and chilled inside and watche malocome in the middle then i wnet home and walked with this one guy to the end of the streer and talked about the tiem i was like high on weed and opiates.....my ass was numb for 4 days strait.....and i was dizzy all the time lol.... it was a crazy time i tell yeah...but i ws out till about 12 30 and left at like 9 and my mom didnt even care i just said i went for a walk and she was cool about it .....surprisingly . so waht do i do now ya know......im kinda lost again. ****************************************** .back to my old ways....this sucks lol....yet again i must " need " someone....my blood tastes like old cigerettes today.... or is it that i am full of smoke.....that i might be blown away.....so come blow me...as hard as you can....cuz i need to get off...get off this planet....find me a new taste...a taste of great things to come....so come on me....ride me to the moon ....well float around for days with the buzz in our ears from the high flying day....so now that were so far up why dont i burst your bubble and bring you down...take you off this new rock back to the old days ...back then we could folick and love freely...now look at us trapeed with ourselves..holding each other after a long days trip.....seductivly enduced by our world and happy with the smoke around us...cuz we both came and came well...so lets sit here in our bed at the end of the day and be quiet...cuz we deserve it baby...cuz i love you....maby....someday well go crazy......for ourselves......well get it donwe waht we dream about and make that fantasy come true...cuz u fantasize about me and i fantasize about you....so lets end our sexuel inuendos and be happy once again....lets fuck...fuck everything that stands in our way.....cuz we bboth think the same...were the same...being....happy together...forever with us....could be happy if u just let me have it....let you have it...right now....right were you wanna...uh.....kiss me goodbye cuz im threw......ill kiss you goodbye cuz i love you.....love you for waht its worth.....u took me away from here for a breaf moment....moments are freee and fake....now that u let me in......fuck me.....over again....with your self behind my eyes...eyes of deceit ....you lie to let me in....cuz the double doors only swing one way now....and thats outside on the curb were u left me....me for me and myself and nothing....thanks alot for that one...last...gag.....on me...my self indulged heart....inside my throat...were you reach in and pull it out...then i die cuz im not so self sentered and alone any more.....you kill me and save me from that warm inside......thanks for bringing me out in the cold.....im happier hear ...with you ...so we can start this cycle...of our hate for each other again...and come out friends.... okok that was a song i just wrote....its so .....me right now i dunno lol.....its like an emotional box that i am at the moment....love...lies.....losss....sex....drugs.....blood and cigerettes...u dub that song IM NOT WHAT YOU THINK later fans