well im an artist a deffinent hopless romantic ... a dreamer and i sure as shit cant spell but i always set out to do what dreams are made of . that is be exact the stuff of dreams. tackle my opposition with lethargic steps . i am deffinently slow. but i come to my senses with sightfulness thinking before i act and allways weighing the measure of myself. but almost always it takes some sort demise to push me to reach for it . i dont like that about myself but i also seem to be in a cercumstantial situation that befalls me... that acts against me but it is my fault. i do fix it ... slowly... but i am a doer that is very much afected by my suroundings insperations and people ... people for the most part... alot of the time the lack there of... but i do what i feel is the utmost importance to my heart. something very few can say they do . i am proud messy and in love . i am a great person . i am a father . a lover . a misser and a hero to few. if anything i wish to inspire mankind with one infallable thing that is above god humanity government and the will to servive. love. this is the thing that i hold dear to me more then anything.. that i hold belief in ... that i channel through me for the benifit of me and all others. and this i love about myself . but i hurt sometime when i just feel the lack of something substancial besides that ... to provide for myself and others... i feel like i have no great skills.. i am privy to much but master of none... i dont know what i want to be when i grow up besides a utterly unstopable lover in every possible way . i am young . i know im im young and not sapose to know that yet ... but its the only thing that every throws doubt about myself in the mixture.. me and doubt is like cognac and milk... it curtles my stomach... putting a stop to me from the inside out and halting me to my knees ... but luckily i think i have found a path... a way out from my jobless lifeless hermitized self in the plaines of oblivion... a way to become at least something that makes me feel like a person worthy of the love i carry and commit to. i finally have stepped out of the forest... spoken to the people ive needed to.. set in plans that i can stick too... made an effort out of lethargic living to step up to the plate and not drive myself even more crazy . i dont lie anymore . i dont break promises. im not a little kid who doesnt know waht he is anymore .im a happy grown up in love and seeking meaning a purpose. and i think ive found them both . i love my people. i love you. with out you i could not make it . i could not overcome the doubt in me. i could not step up to be a human being . to not be a burden . even though i as a person could never seem like one. i love being in love. i love the path that im heading on. i am doing the right thing . for once i can see in front of me and have the will to walk towards my destiny that was so eliquently pasted to the sky amongst the stars . to bring home the turkey while you bring home the bacon. to be alive like you. to be really good for you. to fall in love all over again .