So, D and I are really over. He's called a few times, for the purpose of what I belive to be trying to reconsile. But I'm not going to fall for it, I am over us. I try to keep the conversations short and then make up some reason to go. I didn't relize before how actually unhappy I had become and the feelings just aren't there anymore. I was just too scared to do anything about it, I just was afraid of making a mistake. So I went to Calgary to viit the family Even J came up from Reddeer to celebrate with the big brady bunch family we have. I had a pretty good time, I went out with Jenn the first night and did shopping, made some money house cleaning for mom, saw MM and met her new boyfriend. I have a mixed oppinion of him since MM was acting kind of shitty and I think it may becuase of him, but he seemed really nice and was decent looking. JD went to her family by brandon for New Years Eve. She didn't even call me or let me know that she had made any final plans. I am pissed becuase I thought that we were going to do something. JY was with C in the Yukon. (she's another sucker for the crappy boyfriends club)JS said before that she was going to go to cross lake but for some reason i think she was just avoiding having to do something with me, I don't know what she ended up doing but I wouldn't be suprized if she was in town. A & J said I could chill with them, they bought a big case of 2liter beers. I didn't really think that it would be that fun since they are such alcholic and always have major drama. So I ended up going to the Palameno by myself. It wasn't too bad. I met some Sam chick and she like knew all the staff. She was basically a huge mooch but she only got a cigg from me since I wasn't about to spend all my cash on her. Kris from school was there, it was her boyfriends band Jukebox Heros that was being featured. So that was neat. I met some really huge fat guy who was buying me drinks and shooters, he was nice but sooo sooo huge. and for me to be saying that it must really be bad ya know. At least it beat sitting at home alone. Janey ended up calling me after midnight and telling me where she was and wishing a happy new years. All in all it wasn't that bad. I am feeling very less stressed out and pretty happy and content with my life right now. The only other thing that is even worth mentioning about my holidays is that I started to write to MC again, I sent the first starter letter and there was one from him waiting for me when I came back home. I already sent another one to him and am starting the next one. I'm being a fool for him again, but I guess it's alright since I have nothing better to do and he really is my obsession. so it's all good. So I know this year is the start of something different for me, there is no doubt.I hope that everyone feels the same, it's so refressing.