So i was wrong when i said that nothing would happen with us getting married. quite a lot has actually been happening. I've got the ring (it was on credit by the way) and i've got the dress, got the place, mailed out the invitations, planning the social..it's only 2 weeks away the wedding is only 12 weeks away. Anyway what ticks me off beyond belief is that his parents and brother are not comming to the wedding now!!! like do you belive it after they swore up and down they would come after they made such a fuss about sending a reply "since they were comming forsure" and since his bother is spose to be the best man. I'm so pissed. i'm more pissed because i saw d's heart break, his eyes were all watery. Like i really felt so bad for him. i asked him if he still wanted to get married his response was yes my life doesnt' revolve around them. Although all our wedding plans have. we were going to get married out there so they would be there, but they assured us they would come no matter where we decided. His mother wanted to like walk him donw the isle she wanted to have the parents dance. so they give us the reason because they have no money now cause they just bought a second house that they are not even moving in to. Then when we offered to pay for his mother to come here, she was like oh my doctor says i shouldn't travel. so they are obviously just making up excuses. Whatever thy are fucking bastards. Anyway i'm getting sick i swear it's cause i'm working too much. d isn't working right now he quite/fired more like quite from his job the same weekend that the inlaws said they weren't comming. He hasn't even bothered tringn to find a job. It is starting to piss me off thought. i am the only one who pays for anything. i saved for the money and its' not like he even put in any effort. i'm left to do all the planning. and everything and now with working too i feel like i'm marring my self. I feel like he doesnt' even care. at least he's started to do some house work and stuff while he's home play freakin puter games. I've started talking to JD again. i heard she was trying to get a hold of me and i chased her down in brandon. very interesting. I'm so freaking about the social. i'm scared that no one is comming. I really don't know. i'm so worried. i'm going to die At least kw and ajp are starting to pull their own weight, like they offered to pay for all the coldcuts spread which is super cool. and kk is really comming threw too she has bought prizes and is buying all the little things that we need too. I still have lots to do. mom and sis are comming in for the social and they are throwing me a shower auntie p and kk for the day after the social. i'm freaking out. g2g