so after yesterday night i woke up this morning((at 11:30)) after i reset my alarm twice lol. i was supposed to wake up at 10:30 but yeah sike. so after that i freaking cleaned the WHOLE house. if my dad isnt happy with it im gonna throw something heavy at him. even my mom was like "i think you need to go to the beach because we might not get to go to GA and because you need a stress-free week." im fucking FIFTEEN. im not supposed to HAVE stress but i DOOO.

me and my mom also talked alot about her and my dad and i think ive finally seen past "my favorite daddy" and saw what hes really doing to the family. im the biggest daddys girl you will ever meet but he doesnt keep any promises he says, and hes got serious problems to deal with. he had a rough ass childhood and he didnt have his real dad after he was 3...and hes just taking all his stress from work ((he owns his own company)) and hes using against my mom at night when they get into these fights. i REALLY dont want a divorce between my parents but now my dad has in his head "im a dick so what deal with it" and that doesnt fly because my mom isnt gonna deal with it much longer. the state of virginia also just passed a new law about illegals working for companys and my dad has like 7 illegal spanish people working for him. by continuing to work with them he is risking out house, cars, and everything but he wont let them go OR confess that he knows his company is going down. the big thing now is hes not paying himself and we are just living off my moms paycheck which is 85,000 a year but after bills every month we dont have much for ourselves. it sucks. but i think now my mom is trying to get me to say i will live with her if a seperation happend but im not quite sure i can live without my dad. i just have serious thinking to do.

i really hope my mom can convince my dad to let me go to the beach. ive pretty much given up on warped tour, but f i dont go to the beach im gonna be miserable.

--marcie--