i really wanna leave this house!!! if i had $$ and a car i would leave right now...i cant stand it much longer. it really sucks having an alcoholic parent...and everytime you try and saw something about it ((since my fucking mother drank 9 beers in like freaking 2 1/2 hours)) all she has to say back is what downfalls I have and what my DAD has...what bull shit is that!?!? my downfalls arent ruining my brothers life, or hers, or anyone elses but MINE so she should even touch them! you have to understand with me mom...NOTHING is her fault, and she doesnt do ANYTHING wrong without someone else doing something wrong first. yeah thats her...damnit. shes seriously ruining my life...and im not saying that like those petty teenagers that are like "omg she took my phone shes ruining my life" NO this bitch is RUINING MY LIFE for real...not my SoCiAl life but my future, and my present, and my brother...it just drive me insane. i know if my mom is still pulling this shit when im 18 and my dad is still with her ((i doubt that)) im taking my brother. he will just be turning a teenager and i WONT let his teen years suck as bad as mine..i just wont hear about it. i felt really good because i poured my heart out to tess and we havent had a Y to Y for a while...and im glad we are talking... ::THIS WEEK:: yeah i stayed home 3 days being sick and then my 2 days in school wernt super exciting but i mean..its school. afterschool yesterday we counted ballots for the Snow Ball court...just nominations. BUT i dont think the dance is actually gonna happen. even when we brought up the whole dance ((because we didnt have a homecoming since we are a new school with no senior...meaning no varsity football)) ppl were like....ehhhh idk if im gonna go...but then my principal being the GAY ass bitch she is decided she was gonna make everyone who bought tickets sign a contract saying they will only dance face to face ((!?!?!?)) and it had the dress code and shit. yeah now weve only sold SEVEN tickets in 2 days...out of 1500 kids. ive only heard ONE junior say they are going...and im hoping since hes got a big crew they will all buy tickets but i doubt it...he might just be going cuz his gurl wants to go...damnit lol. freshman are about all and the teacher said we need 200 tickets sold...there is no way in HELL we will make that limit if we only sell 3 a day. the we had rehearsals yesterday and that was ok...this play we are doing is REALLY gay and im kindda mad...cuz im the only sophomore and the rest of these kids are just strange freshmen...its wrong. well im gonna go may b talk to tess more... Later