ok so yesterday my dad had spinal surgery again...and while they were in there they nicked his spinal cord so hes leaking spinal fluid ((thats the reason I was in the hospital for 3 days)) so he cant move, sit up, or even adjust for 2 days...and hes having muscle spazums on top of his pain hes had, and his surgery. for the last...7 weeks may b he has been in SO much pain and it was hard for me because my dad has always been the tough, macho man dad ((and im the biggest daddys girl EVER)) so it was hard...and then yesterday i went into his hopital room and i was crying almost the whole 3 hours because now he cant do ANYTHING for himself and he was in SOO much MORE pain than usual and there was nothing i could do. his spazums started to get worse around 9:30 and the pain medicine they were giving him were strictly for pain...not the muscle spazums so we were trying to get muscle relaxant and it took like a freaking hour and a half...then when we finally had to leave i cried all the way the car, and then broke down...i dont know if many ppl can understand but i just couldnt handle it...so when i got home (i passed out crying in the car) i started crying again so my mom gave me a relaxant so i could calm down. i didnt go to school cuz i NEED to go stay with him today so im going. my mom also bought me some jack daniels downhome punch ((my favorite)) so im relaxing but idk what im gonna feel when we go back. ill write back again tonight. later, marcia